7. Old Love

 

I used to see the world in your eyes

All its beauty and its pain

And we felt the same

Now I only see the darkness inside

 

Only sorrow remains

And I drown in the shame

That I feel better for it

Yet I wonder if I should

Discard this success

 

And share the pain as penance

 

For every wrong that I've done

It's wrong that you suffer

For I was your lover

If you're in my heart

Then you're in my veins

And I didn't think that'd go away

But something cut so deep

And you bled out of me

 

And she said

"I hope you die

I hope you rot

In a loveless grave

Just pain all love forgotten"

And she said

"I hope you choke"

 

"You will beg for my forgiveness

You will beg for my sympathy

And I'll say no

I'll say nothing"

Fuck it's so damn hard...

Fuck it

 

I was the blood in your veins

You flowed through me

One and the same

But the knife cut so deep

And you bled out of me

 

And I drown in the shame

That I feel better for it

 

For every wrong that I've done

It's wrong that you suffer

For I was your lover

If you're in my heart

Then you're in my veins

And I didn't think that'd go away

But something cut so deep

And you bled out of me

 

A house that used to be a home

Now stands empty

And the bodies that grew within

Now walk alone

 

And she said

"You will wake up one day

And realise that everything you hated

Was just you reflected

And on that discovery

Self-loathing and misery

Will drown you unequivocally"

Go figure

 

8. You're Killing It (Downer)

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[feat. Sam Carter of Architects]

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And forgive my sin

But then I prayed

For the day the rains come

And wash you away

All the deceit

All the abuse

All the disease

To cleanse the wound

To end the curse

So I can heal

Be free of your disease

 

I pray

For the end of days

For the rains to fall

For the rains to come

And wash you away

 

I know why your life is so empty

I know why you're always in pain

And forgive my sin

But then I prayed

For the rains to come

And wash you away

 

How many years have I known you?

How much time have we shared?

How many lies have you spilled into the air?

And after all this time

I've seen so many leave your side

You will never realise

You will never know why

 

I pray

For the end of days

For the rains to fall

For the rains to come and wash you away

 

I know why your life is so empty

I know why you're always in pain

And forgive my sin

But then I prayed

For the rains to come

And wash you away

 

I know why your life is so empty

I know why you're always in pain

 

9. Ugly Days

 

I can give and I can run

Until there is nothing left

And then at my end what solace will appear?

 

What should I expect?

Broken and a mess

Cliché words, but fit my profile best

 

I feel sorry for those who have wrung these words

So there's no colours left

Because you can't climb the mountain

When the truth comes crashing down on you

 

I can live and I can love

Until there is nothing left

And then at my end I wonder if my solace will appear

 

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can be beautiful in every way

We all have ugly days

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can be beautiful in every way

 

Do you know what it's like to be bested?

Have you lost?

Have you fought and not won?

Do you know what it's like to be tested?

Do you know what it's like to overcome?

 

I can fake and I can hate

Until there is nothing left

And then at my end what solace will appear?

 

What should I expect?

Broken and a mess

Cliché words that crush my fucking chest

 

 

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can beautiful in every way

We all have ugly days

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can be beautiful in every way

We all have ugly days

 

10. Mother, Father

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Mother, father

What have I done?

Where is your quiet son?

What has he become?

 

Stuck inside these walls

Stare through the windows into my soul

Just tell it where to go

It's got no hope

It's got no home

 

I've made some mistakes

And I've burnt all of you

I've made some poor decisions

And I've hurt all of you

 

I am I am I am

The same inside

But those actions will haunt me

Until I die

 

Not afraid to say I lost my way

Walked this path for too long

Am I better off?

Am I worse?

No regrets just some sad fucking songs

 

I'm afraid

I lost

I am worse

No regret

No cure

I accept this curse.

 

Stuck inside these walls

Stare through the windows into my soul

Just tell it where to go

It's got no hope

It's got no home

 

I'm afraid

I lost

I am worse.

No regret

No cure

I accept this curse

 

Mother, father

What have I done?

Where is your quiet son?

What has he become?

 

Mother?

Father?

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11. For Anyone Who Hurts

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The sun is shining

But your blood runs cold

There is a chill in your bones

 

And you would swear

There is a hole

Where your heart is meant to be

Not sure why

But your inside

Is hollow and empty

 

And you're thinking some dark, dark thoughts

But you can push them right

Out of your mind if you try

I swear

 

"trust me"

 

Things are gonna be different

Nothing will stay the same

It will get better

And everything will change

Say so long

Say farewell

Live and let die

 

It is cliché

But every word I truly mean

There is so much beauty to be seen

And you're beautiful too kid

You will be loved

You will be warm

And these paths in life are meant to be walked

 

"believe me"

 

Things are gonna be different

Nothing will stay the same

It will get better

And everything will change

Say so long

Say farewell

Live and let die

 

Live and let die

 

Just don't give up

Just don't let go

I know you won't

 

Just spend a little less time

Chasing those thoughts in your mind

And just let them go

 

Things are gonna be different kid

Nothing will stay the same

It will get better

And everything will change

 

It will get better

And everything will change

 

Things are gonna be different kid

And everything will change

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