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Haunt Me As I Roam

UNFD/Lifeforce Records
(2015)
1. Cold
2. Coffin Keeper
3. Haunt Me As I Roam
4. Hard Feelings
5. Wanderlast
6. Dogs Blood
7. Old Love
8. You're Killing It (Downer)
9. Ugly Days
10. Mother, Father
11. For Anyone Who Hurts

 

Credits

Vocals - Sam Crocker

Guitars - Matt Livingstone

Guitars - Luke Manson

Bass - Josh Moffitt

Drums - Israel McDean

Music written by Antagonist A.D.

Lyrics written by Sam Crocker

Mixed and mastered by Will Putney

Engineered by Claton Segelov and Troy Brady

Produced by Antagonist A.D. with assistance from Will Putney, Aaron Brooks and Troy Brady.

Drums recorded at Heliport Studios

Bass recorded at The Brain Studios

Guitars and vocals recorded at Evergreen Studios

Photography by Ben Clement

Artwork and design by J. Bannon

1. Cold

I grew up in the cold
With frost inside my bones
But this chill runs through me
Like the cold never knew me 
Never knew me

This reaper on my back
Keeps whispering an easy way out
But I ain't scared of it
I'm not scared to live
And I ain't scared of it
I'm not scared to live
 

 

2. Coffin Keeper

You dig a hole

Five days a week

So you can sleep at night

So you can sleep?

 

Carry the burden

Carry the weight

It will drown you one day

 

And then you'll sleep forever

And your body will rot

The years will bury your name

And over time you'll be forgotten

 

Carry the burden

Carry the weight

It will drown you one day

 

Oh it's hard to see a good hearted kid running scared

Running scared with a tail between their legs going back

Going back on every single thing that they ever said

Fuck that, I'd rather be dead

 

Than be afraid to live

Than to be a coward

Going back on every single thing that they ever said

 

I'd rather be dead

 

You dig a hole

Five days a week

So you can sleep at night

So you can sleep?

 

Carry the burden

Carry the weight

It will drown you one day

 

Oh it's hard to see a good hearted kid running scared

Running scared with a tail between their legs going back

Going back on every single thing that they ever said

Fuck that I'd rather be dead

 

You won't get to quench the greed

You won't get to justify the want with the need

You won't get to live beyond your means

Six feet deep

 

Your body will rot

Coffin keeper

No one will remember your name


 

3. Haunt Me As I Roam

 

[feat. Ahren Stringer of The Amity Affliction]

 

I saw your ghost

It was calling out for me

Do you know where it goes at night?

Because it always come to me

 

I saw your ghost

It was calling out for me

Do you know where it goes at night?

Because it always comes to me

 

The world turns and I'll forever mourn

And I'm sorry that I wasn't the closest

And I'm sorry but I always cared

I could see this coming a mile away

Didn't do enough to show you another way

 

I loved you before

I love you still

I always will

Haunt me as I roam

 

And I can't sleep some nights when I see your face

Just to know a life can be lost and just slip away

 

You were fucked up when I saw you

And I don't know if you ever knew

You were fucked up when I saw you

But my words to you forever ring true

 

I loved you before

I love you still

I always will

Haunt me as I roam

 

Sometimes those feelings affect me.

Like I never could grasp the reality of when you left me

And that's selfish to say

Because you left us all

When you took your life away

 

Haunt me as I roam

 

You needed something to

Something to hold on to

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
7. Old Love

 

I used to see the world in your eyes

All its beauty and its pain

And we felt the same

Now I only see the darkness inside

 

Only sorrow remains

And I drown in the shame

That I feel better for it

Yet I wonder if I should

Discard this success

 

And share the pain as penance

 

For every wrong that I've done

It's wrong that you suffer

For I was your lover

If you're in my heart

Then you're in my veins

And I didn't think that'd go away

But something cut so deep

And you bled out of me

 

And she said

"I hope you die

I hope you rot

In a loveless grave

Just pain all love forgotten"

And she said

"I hope you choke"

 

"You will beg for my forgiveness

You will beg for my sympathy

And I'll say no

I'll say nothing"

Fuck it's so damn hard...

Fuck it

 

I was the blood in your veins

You flowed through me

One and the same

But the knife cut so deep

And you bled out of me

 

And I drown in the shame

That I feel better for it

 

For every wrong that I've done

It's wrong that you suffer

For I was your lover

If you're in my heart

Then you're in my veins

And I didn't think that'd go away

But something cut so deep

And you bled out of me

 

A house that used to be a home

Now stands empty

And the bodies that grew within

Now walk alone

 

And she said

"You will wake up one day

And realise that everything you hated

Was just you reflected

And on that discovery

Self-loathing and misery

Will drown you unequivocally"

Go figure


 

8. You're Killing It (Downer)

[feat. Sam Carter of Architects]

And forgive my sin

But then I prayed

For the day the rains come

And wash you away

All the deceit

All the abuse

All the disease

To cleanse the wound

To end the curse

So I can heal

Be free of your disease

 

I pray

For the end of days

For the rains to fall

For the rains to come

And wash you away

 

I know why your life is so empty

I know why you're always in pain

And forgive my sin

But then I prayed

For the rains to come

And wash you away

 

How many years have I known you?

How much time have we shared?

How many lies have you spilled into the air?

And after all this time

I've seen so many leave your side

You will never realise

You will never know why

 

I pray

For the end of days

For the rains to fall

For the rains to come and wash you away

 

I know why your life is so empty

I know why you're always in pain

And forgive my sin

But then I prayed

For the rains to come

And wash you away

 

I know why your life is so empty

I know why you're always in pain


 

9. Ugly Days

 

I can give and I can run

Until there is nothing left

And then at my end what solace will appear?

 

What should I expect?

Broken and a mess

Cliché words, but fit my profile best

 

I feel sorry for those who have wrung these words

So there's no colours left

Because you can't climb the mountain

When the truth comes crashing down on you

 

I can live and I can love

Until there is nothing left

And then at my end I wonder if my solace will appear

 

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can be beautiful in every way

We all have ugly days

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can be beautiful in every way

 

Do you know what it's like to be bested?

Have you lost?

Have you fought and not won?

Do you know what it's like to be tested?

Do you know what it's like to overcome?

 

I can fake and I can hate

Until there is nothing left

And then at my end what solace will appear?

 

What should I expect?

Broken and a mess

Cliché words that crush my fucking chest

 

 

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can beautiful in every way

We all have ugly days

I hate this world that I see today

But I still know it can be beautiful in every way

We all have ugly days


 

10. Mother, Father

Mother, father

What have I done?

Where is your quiet son?

What has he become?

 

Stuck inside these walls

Stare through the windows into my soul

Just tell it where to go

It's got no hope

It's got no home

 

I've made some mistakes

And I've burnt all of you

I've made some poor decisions

And I've hurt all of you

 

I am I am I am

The same inside

But those actions will haunt me

Until I die

 

Not afraid to say I lost my way

Walked this path for too long

Am I better off?

Am I worse?

No regrets just some sad fucking songs

 

I'm afraid

I lost

I am worse

No regret

No cure

I accept this curse.

 

Stuck inside these walls

Stare through the windows into my soul

Just tell it where to go

It's got no hope

It's got no home

 

I'm afraid

I lost

I am worse.

No regret

No cure

I accept this curse

 

Mother, father

What have I done?

Where is your quiet son?

What has he become?

 

Mother?

Father?

11. For Anyone Who Hurts

The sun is shining

But your blood runs cold

There is a chill in your bones

 

And you would swear

There is a hole

Where your heart is meant to be

Not sure why

But your inside

Is hollow and empty

 

And you're thinking some dark, dark thoughts

But you can push them right

Out of your mind if you try

I swear

 

"trust me"

 

Things are gonna be different

Nothing will stay the same

It will get better

And everything will change

Say so long

Say farewell

Live and let die

 

It is cliché

But every word I truly mean

There is so much beauty to be seen

And you're beautiful too kid

You will be loved

You will be warm

And these paths in life are meant to be walked

 

"believe me"

 

Things are gonna be different

Nothing will stay the same

It will get better

And everything will change

Say so long

Say farewell

Live and let die

 

Live and let die

 

Just don't give up

Just don't let go

I know you won't

 

Just spend a little less time

Chasing those thoughts in your mind

And just let them go

 

Things are gonna be different kid

Nothing will stay the same

It will get better

And everything will change

 

It will get better

And everything will change

 

Things are gonna be different kid

And everything will change

4. Hard Feelings

I guess there’s too much of you in my veins

And it's slowly starting to shut me down

Give me a reason to breath

Give me a reason to think clearly

Tell me why I shouldn't leave

Tell me why I shouldn't wander endlessly

 

And it's slowly starting to shut me down

 

I’ve been thinking, I've been thinking about this too long

And I've been going about this all too wrong

Never knew what to say or what to do

To voice these thoughts the best to you

When I wake up I feel sick

There is no end to this

There is no end

 

I guess there’s too much of you in my veins

And it's slowly starting to shut me down

Give me a reason to breathe

Give me a reason to think clearly

Tell me why I shouldn't leave

Tell me why I shouldn't wander endlessly

 

Nothing worth keeping comes that easy

This pain, this world, won't defeat me

 

Never knew what to say or what to do

To voice these thoughts the best to you

When I wake up I feel sick

There is no end to this

 

I guess there’s too much of you in my veins

And it's slowly starting to shut me down

Give me a reason to breathe

Give me a reason to think clearly

Tell me why I shouldn't leave

Tell me why I shouldn't wander endlessly

 

When I wake I feel sick

There is no end to this

5. Wanderlust

[feat. Andrew Neufeld of Comeback Kid]

 

I'm staring at the sun

Screaming out my lungs

I've sang a hundred words

To chase a hundred problems

Right out of my mind

 

I've got so much trouble on my mind

I can't describe

No words to hide the pain behind my eyes

 

So where do we go from here?

 

Give me heaven

Give me hell

Give me an answer

Are we lost?

Wanderlust

Still searching all these years gone by

And still no end in sight

 

I'm still staring at the sun

Screaming out my lungs

I’ve sang a hundred words

To chase a hundred problems

Right out of my mind

I'm staring at the sun

Screaming out my lungs

I've sang a hundred words

To chase a hundred problems

Right out of my mind

 

When did the compass break?

When did we lose our way?

 

Give me heaven

Give me hell

Give me an answer

Are we lost?

Wanderlust

Still searching all these years gone by

And still no end in sight

 

I'm still staring at the sun

Screaming out my lungs

I’ve sang a hundred words

To chase a hundred problems

Right out of my mind

I'm staring at the sun

Screaming out my lungs

I've sang a hundred words

To chase a hundred problems

Right out of my mind

 

I swear

With myself as my witness

That I, I'll get through anything

I can get through this

 

I swear

With myself as my witness

That...

 

I'm still staring at the sun

Screaming out my lungs

I’ve sang a hundred words

To chase a hundred problems

Right out of my mind


 

6. Dogs Blood

 

[feat. JJ Peters of Deez Nuts]

 

So, so sick of the same thing

Someone wake me up

Get me out of this dream

So, so sick of a life on repeat

Broken record still spinning the same beat

 

Still dying still lying through your teeth

I still see disease in your eyes in these streets

Every hour

Every day

Every week

Look at me I still remember everything

And I hope you walk the earth alone

And I hope you carry the weight

Of every lie you spun

Of every straw you placed that broke a back

I hope your dog blood rots you from the inside out

 

Get those middles fingers up cause

Fuck the government, fuck the cops

Fuck authority and fuck the system

And fuck you too if you're fucking with them

Now whose side are you on?

If you're not on mine

You're just a nark, just a snitch, just a bitch

Don't pretend we are one and the same

 

And I'm so sick of the same shit

On repeat like it's groundhog day

There's always hell to pay

And we are all just die in the end

Life's short, down for anything

Fuck a fake friend

 

I still see disease in your eyes in these streets

Every hour

Every day

Every week

I still remember everything

And I hope you walk the earth alone

And I hope you carry the weight

Of every lie you spun

Of every straw you placed that broke a back

I hope your dog blood rots you from the inside out

 

Get those middles fingers up cause

Fuck the government, fuck the cops

Fuck authority and fuck the system

And fuck you too if you're fucking with them

Now whose side are you on?

If you're not on mine

You're just a nark, just a snitch, just a bitch

Don't pretend we are one and the same

 

So now the line’s been drawn in the sand

You better fucking know on which side that you stand

And if there's a single doubt in your weak fucking mind

Bet that we all know that you ain't one of our kind

The life we live ain't for the faint heart you see

So do your research before you try and walk this line

This is for real we ain't playing no games

You’re fucking lame

We ain't one and the same bitch