

HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
UNFD/LIFEFORCE
(2015)
1. COLD
2. COFFIN KEEPER
3. HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
4. HARD FEELINGS
5. WANDERLUST
6. DOGS BLOOD
7. OLD LOVE
8. YOU’RE KILLING IT (DOWNER)
9. UGLY DAYS
10. MOTHER, FATHER
11. FOR ANYONE WHO HURTS
CREDITS
Vocals - Sam Crocker
Guitars - Matt Livingstone
Guitars - Luke Manson
Bass - Josh Moffitt
Drums - Israel McDean
Music written by Antagonist A.D.
Lyrics written by Sam Crocker
Mixed and mastered by Will Putney
Engineered by Claton Segelov and Troy Brady
Produced by Antagonist A.D. with assistance from Will Putney, Aaron Brooks and Troy Brady.
Drums recorded at Heliport Studios
Bass recorded at The Brain Studios
Guitars and vocals recorded at Evergreen Studios
Photography by Ben Clement
Artwork and design by J. Bannon
1. COLD
I GREW UP IN THE COLD
WITH FROST INSIDE MY BONES
BUT THIS CHILL RUNS THROUGH ME
LIKE THE COLD NEVER KNEW ME
NEVER KNEW ME
THIS REAPER ON MY BACK
KEEPS WHISPERING AN EASY WAY OUT
BUT I AIN'T SCARED OF IT
I'M NOT SCARED TO LIVE
AND I AIN'T SCARED OF IT
I'M NOT SCARED TO LIVE
This is about growing up with pain and struggle. These trials and tribulations will scar you forever. Everyone has their own story. Most of my scars are not physical but mental. Although at times I feel weakened by the path I took to become the man I am today, I wouldn't be who I am without those lessons. The war is constant, I have overcome & I will always overcome.
2. COFFIN KEEPER
YOU DIG A HOLE
FIVE DAYS A WEEK
SO YOU CAN SLEEP AT NIGHT
SO YOU CAN SLEEP?
CARRY THE BURDEN
CARRY THE WEIGHT
IT WILL DROWN YOU ONE DAY
AND THEN YOU'LL SLEEP FOREVER
AND YOUR BODY WILL ROT
THE YEARS WILL BURY YOUR NAME
AND OVER TIME YOU'LL BE FORGOTTEN
CARRY THE BURDEN
CARRY THE WEIGHT
IT WILL DROWN YOU ONE DAY
OH IT'S HARD TO SEE A GOOD HEARTED KID RUNNING SCARED
RUNNING SCARED WITH A TAIL BETWEEN THEIR LEGS GOING BACK
GOING BACK ON EVERY SINGLE THING THAT THEY EVER SAID
FUCK THAT, I'D RATHER BE DEAD
FUCK THAT, I'D RATHER BE DEAD
THAN BE AFRAID TO LIVE
THAN TO BE A COWARD
GOING BACK ON EVERY SINGLE THING THAT THEY EVER SAID
I'D RATHER BE DEAD
YOU DIG A HOLE
FIVE DAYS A WEEK
SO YOU CAN SLEEP AT NIGHT
SO YOU CAN SLEEP?
CARRY THE BURDEN
CARRY THE WEIGHT
IT WILL DROWN YOU ONE DAY
OH IT'S HARD TO SEE A GOOD HEARTED KID RUNNING SCARED
RUNNING SCARED WITH A TAIL BETWEEN THEIR LEGS GOING BACK
GOING BACK ON EVERY SINGLE THING THAT THEY EVER SAID
FUCK THAT I'D RATHER BE DEAD
FUCK THAT I'D RATHER BE DEAD
YOU WON'T GET TO QUENCH THE GREED
YOU WON'T GET TO JUSTIFY THE WANT WITH THE NEED
YOU WON'T GET TO LIVE BEYOND YOUR MEANS
SIX FEET DEEP
YOUR BODY WILL ROT
COFFIN KEEPER
NO ONE WILL REMEMBER YOUR NAME
YOUR BODY WILL ROT
COFFIN KEEPER
NO ONE WILL REMEMBER YOUR NAME
Life is so short. If working an office job or the counter at some fast food place makes you happy then you're doing it right. You shouldn't have to count down the hours waiting to die behind a desk or a power tool if you don't want to be there. Find something you love, be the best you can be at it and most of all be happy.
3. HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
[feat. Ahren Stringer of The Amity Affliction]
I SAW YOUR GHOST
IT WAS CALLING OUT FOR ME
DO YOU KNOW WHERE IT GOES AT NIGHT?
BECAUSE IT ALWAYS COME TO ME
I SAW YOUR GHOST
IT WAS CALLING OUT FOR ME
DO YOU KNOW WHERE IT GOES AT NIGHT?
BECAUSE IT ALWAYS COMES TO ME
THE WORLD TURNS AND I'LL FOREVER MOURN
AND I'M SORRY THAT I WASN'T THE CLOSEST
AND I'M SORRY BUT I ALWAYS CARED
I COULD SEE THIS COMING A MILE AWAY
DIDN'T DO ENOUGH TO SHOW YOU ANOTHER WAY
I LOVED YOU BEFORE
I LOVE YOU STILL
I ALWAYS WILL
HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
I LOVED YOU BEFORE
I LOVE YOU STILL
I ALWAYS WILL
HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
AND I CAN'T SLEEP SOME NIGHTS WHEN I SEE YOUR FACE
JUST TO KNOW A LIFE CAN BE LOST AND JUST SLIP AWAY
YOU WERE FUCKED UP WHEN I SAW YOU
AND I DON'T KNOW IF YOU EVER KNEW
YOU WERE FUCKED UP WHEN I SAW YOU
BUT MY WORDS TO YOU FOREVER RING TRUE
I LOVED YOU BEFORE
I LOVE YOU STILL
I ALWAYS WILL
HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
I LOVED YOU BEFORE
I LOVE YOU STILL
I ALWAYS WILL
HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
SOMETIMES THOSE FEELINGS AFFECT ME
LIKE I NEVER COULD GRASP THE REALITY OF WHEN YOU LEFT ME
AND THAT'S SELFISH TO SAY
BECAUSE YOU LEFT US ALL
WHEN YOU TOOK YOUR LIFE AWAY
HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
SOMETIMES THOSE FEELINGS AFFECT ME
LIKE I NEVER COULD GRASP THE REALITY OF WHEN YOU LEFT ME
AND THAT'S SELFISH TO SAY
BECAUSE YOU LEFT US ALL
WHEN YOU TOOK YOUR LIFE AWAY
HAUNT ME AS I ROAM
YOU NEEDED SOMETHING TO
SOMETHING TO HOLD ON TO
YOU NEEDED SOMETHING TO
SOMETHING TO HOLD ON TO
I wrote this song for myself to deal with the loss of a friend. It was years on that I felt the most lost trying to deal with that pain. The anger that it didn’t have to happen. The frustration of so many words unsaid. My only solace is that one of the last things I got to say was that I loved them and that I’ll always be their friend forever. My only regret is that I didn’t say those words early enough. Loud enough, or at the best time for them to understand it and take it in. RIP.
7. OLD LOVE
I USED TO SEE THE WORLD IN YOUR EYES
ALL ITS BEAUTY AND ITS PAIN
AND WE FELT THE SAME
NOW I ONLY SEE THE DARKNESS INSIDE
ONLY SORROW REMAINS
AND I DROWN IN THE SHAME
THAT I FEEL BETTER FOR IT
YET I WONDER IF I SHOULD
DISCARD THIS SUCCESS
AND SHARE THE PAIN AS PENANCE
FOR EVERY WRONG THAT I'VE DONE
IT'S WRONG THAT YOU SUFFER
FOR I WAS YOUR LOVER
IF YOU'RE IN MY HEART
THEN YOU'RE IN MY VEINS
AND I DIDN'T THINK THAT'D GO AWAY
BUT SOMETHING CUT SO DEEP
AND YOU BLED OUT OF ME
AND SHE SAID
"I HOPE YOU DIE
I HOPE YOU ROT
IN A LOVELESS GRAVE
JUST PAIN ALL LOVE FORGOTTEN"
AND SHE SAID
"I HOPE YOU CHOKE"
"YOU WILL BEG FOR MY FORGIVENESS
YOU WILL BEG FOR MY SYMPATHY
AND I'LL SAY NO
I'LL SAY NOTHING"
FUCK IT'S SO DAMN HARD...
FUCK IT
I WAS THE BLOOD
IN YOUR VEINS
YOU FLOWED THROUGH ME
ONE AND THE SAME
BUT THE KNIFE CUT SO DEEP
AND YOU BLED OUT OF ME
AND I DROWN IN THE SHAME
THAT I FEEL BETTER FOR IT
FOR EVERY WRONG THAT I'VE DONE
IT'S WRONG THAT YOU SUFFER
FOR I WAS YOUR LOVER
IF YOU'RE IN MY HEART
THEN YOU'RE IN MY VEINS
AND I DIDN'T THINK THAT'D GO AWAY
BUT SOMETHING CUT SO DEEP
AND YOU BLED OUT OF ME
AND YOU BLED OUT OF ME
A HOUSE THAT USED TO BE A HOME
NOW STANDS EMPTY
AND THE BODIES THAT GREW WITHIN
NOW WALK ALONE
A HOUSE THAT USED TO BE A HOME
NOW STANDS EMPTY
AND THE BODIES THAT GREW WITHIN
NOW WALK ALONE
AND SHE SAID
"YOU WILL WAKE UP ONE DAY
AND REALISE THAT EVERYTHING YOU HATED
WAS JUST YOU REFLECTED
AND ON THAT DISCOVERY
SELF-LOATHING AND MISERY
WILL DROWN YOU UNEQUIVOCALLY"
GO FIGURE
From my experience love is the worst/best thing you can ever be lucky enough to share. It never runs out but sometimes it can breed bitterness and spite. People do and say horrible things when they're hurt and then those words are stuck with the other forever. It's fucking hard.
8. YOU’RE KILLING IT (DOWNER)
[feat. Sam Carter of Architects]
AND FORGIVE MY SIN
BUT THEN I PRAYED
FOR THE DAY THE RAINS COME
AND WASH YOU AWAY
ALL THE DECEIT
ALL THE ABUSE
ALL THE DISEASE
TO CLEANSE THE WOUND
TO END THE CURSE
SO I CAN HEAL
BE FREE OF YOUR DISEASE
I PRAY
FOR THE END OF DAYS
FOR THE RAINS TO FALL
FOR THE RAINS TO COME
AND WASH YOU AWAY
I KNOW WHY YOUR LIFE IS SO EMPTY
I KNOW WHY YOU'RE ALWAYS IN PAIN
AND FORGIVE MY SIN
BUT THEN I PRAYED
FOR THE RAINS TO COME
AND WASH YOU AWAY
HOW MANY YEARS HAVE I KNOWN YOU?
HOW MUCH TIME HAVE WE SHARED?
HOW MANY LIES HAVE YOU SPILLED INTO THE AIR?
AND AFTER ALL THIS TIME
I'VE SEEN SO MANY LEAVE YOUR SIDE
YOU WILL NEVER REALISE
YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHY
I PRAY
FOR THE END OF DAYS
FOR THE RAINS TO FALL
FOR THE RAINS TO COME
AND WASH YOU AWAY
I KNOW WHY YOUR LIFE IS SO EMPTY
I KNOW WHY YOU'RE ALWAYS IN PAIN
AND FORGIVE MY SIN
BUT THEN I PRAYED
FOR THE RAINS TO COME
AND WASH YOU AWAY
I KNOW WHY YOUR LIFE IS SO EMPTY
I KNOW WHY YOU'RE ALWAYS IN PAIN
I KNOW WHY YOUR LIFE IS SO EMPTY
I KNOW WHY YOU'RE ALWAYS IN PAIN
Surround yourself with like-minded people to be the best you can be. Don't accommodate those who drain your time and energy. Their negativity will creep into you and waste you away.
9. UGLY DAYS
I CAN GIVE AND I CAN RUN
UNTIL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT
AND THEN AT MY END WHAT SOLACE WILL APPEAR?
WHAT SHOULD I EXPECT?
BROKEN AND A MESS
CLICHÉ WORDS
BUT FIT MY PROFILE BEST
I FEEL SORRY FOR THOSE WHO HAVE WRUNG THESE WORDS
SO THERE'S NO COLOURS LEFT
BECAUSE YOU CAN'T CLIMB THE MOUNTAIN
WHEN THE TRUTH COMES CRASHING DOWN
ON YOU
I CAN LIVE AND I CAN LOVE
UNTIL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT
AND THEN AT MY END I WONDER IF MY SOLACE WILL APPEAR
I HATE THIS WORLD THAT I SEE TODAY
BUT I STILL KNOW IT CAN BE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY
WE ALL HAVE UGLY DAYS
I HATE THIS WORLD THAT I SEE TODAY
BUT I STILL KNOW IT CAN BE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY
DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE BESTED?
HAVE YOU LOST?
HAVE YOU FOUGHT AND NOT WON?
DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE TESTED?
DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO OVERCOME?
I CAN FAKE AND I CAN HATE
UNTIL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT
AND THEN AT MY END WHAT SOLACE WILL APPEAR?
WHAT SHOULD I EXPECT?
BROKEN AND A MESS
CLICHÉ WORDS
THAT CRUSH MY FUCKING CHEST
I HATE THIS WORLD THAT I SEE TODAY
BUT I STILL KNOW IT CAN BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY
WE ALL HAVE UGLY DAYS
I HATE THIS WORLD THAT I SEE TODAY
BUT I STILL KNOW IT CAN BE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY
WE ALL HAVE UGLY DAYS
Don't focus on the negatives out of your control. Keep your head held high, believe in yourself.
10. MOTHER, FATHER
MOTHER, FATHER
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
WHERE IS YOUR QUIET SON?
WHAT HAS HE BECOME?
STUCK INSIDE THESE WALLS
STARE THROUGH THE WINDOWS INTO MY SOUL
JUST TELL IT WHERE TO GO
IT'S GOT NO HOPE
IT'S GOT NO HOME
I'VE MADE SOME MISTAKES
AND I'VE BURNT ALL OF YOU
I'VE MADE SOME POOR DECISIONS
AND I'VE HURT ALL OF YOU
I AM I AM I AM
THE SAME INSIDE
BUT THOSE ACTIONS WILL HAUNT ME
UNTIL I DIE
NOT AFRAID TO SAY I LOST MY WAY
WALKED THIS PATH FOR TOO LONG
AM I BETTER OFF?
AM I WORSE?
NO REGRETS JUST SOME SAD FUCKING SONGS
I'M AFRAID
I LOST
I AM WORSE
NO REGRET
NO CURE
I ACCEPT THIS CURSE
STUCK INSIDE THESE WALLS
STARE THROUGH THE WINDOWS INTO MY SOUL
JUST TELL IT WHERE TO GO
IT'S GOT NO HOPE
IT'S GOT NO HOME
I'M AFRAID
I LOST
I AM WORSE
NO REGRET
NO CURE
I ACCEPT THIS CURSE
MOTHER, FATHER
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
WHERE IS YOUR QUIET SON?
WHAT HAS HE BECOME?
MOTHER, FATHER
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
WHERE IS YOUR QUIET SON?
WHAT HAS HE BECOME?
MOTHER?
FATHER?
We all make mistakes. The only real mistake you can make is not learning and growing from what you have experienced.
11. FOR ANYONE WHO HURTS
THE SUN IS SHINING
BUT YOUR BLOOD RUNS COLD
THERE IS A CHILL IN YOUR BONES
AND YOU WOULD SWEAR
THERE IS A HOLE
WHERE YOUR HEART IS MEANT TO BE
NOT SURE WHY
BUT YOUR INSIDE
IS HOLLOW AND EMPTY
AND YOU'RE THINKING SOME DARK, DARK THOUGHTS
BUT YOU CAN PUSH THEM RIGHT
OUT OF YOUR MIND IF YOU TRY
I SWEAR
"TRUST ME"
THINGS ARE GONNA BE DIFFERENT
NOTHING WILL STAY THE SAME
IT WILL GET BETTER
AND EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE
SAY SO LONG
SAY FAREWELL
LIVE AND LET DIE
IT IS CLICHÉ, BUT
EVERY WORD I TRULY MEAN
THERE IS SO MUCH BEAUTY TO BE SEEN
AND YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL TOO KID
YOU WILL BE LOVED
YOU WILL BE WARM
AND THESE PATHS IN LIFE ARE MEANT TO BE WALKED
"BELIEVE ME"
THINGS ARE GONNA BE DIFFERENT
NOTHING WILL STAY THE SAME
IT WILL GET BETTER
AND EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE
SAY SO LONG
SAY FAREWELL
LIVE AND LET DIE
LIVE AND LET DIE
JUST DON'T GIVE UP
JUST DON'T LET GO
I KNOW YOU WON'T
JUST SPEND A LITTLE LESS TIME
CHASING THOSE THOUGHTS IN YOUR MIND
AND JUST LET THEM GO
JUST SPEND A LITTLE LESS TIME
CHASING THOSE THOUGHTS IN YOUR MIND
AND JUST LET THEM GO
THINGS ARE GONNA BE DIFFERENT KID
NOTHING WILL STAY THE SAME
IT WILL GET BETTER
AND EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE
THINGS ARE GONNA BE DIFFERENT KID
NOTHING WILL STAY THE SAME
IT WILL GET BETTER
AND EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE
IT WILL GET BETTER
AND EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE
THINGS ARE GONNA BE DIFFERENT KID
AND EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE
Depression and anxiety can make the world seem like an unfathomable place. Everyone suffers this in some form. You are not weird or alone. I wrote these words for myself in a particularly hard time. I initially wrote them with such sarcasm as if to laugh at the thought of life ever getting better. Then I re-read them days later, I read them seriously & it helped me grow. If you're in the darkness as I was, I hope these words can help and if you're truly suffering and truly scared don't be afraid to ask for help. This world is an amazing place - you need to see it. You need to live an amazing life, you owe it to yourself. No matter who you are, no matter what you have done, someone somewhere loves you or is waiting to love you. Don't be too scared or too proud to ask for help and if you care about someone make sure you tell them you care for them. Tell them you are there for them if they need you. Sometimes it only takes the smallest gesture to save someone's life.
For anyone who is suffering quietly inside themselves, this album is also for you. For those who feel the pressure of the world and their peers burning inside their heads. Cementing them to the ground. Swelling their glands. Beating out of their chest. Please know that millions before you have walked the same path with success. Please understand that a million after will walk through their own fire also, only to be greater for it on the other side. Just like you will be richer for the path you have taken. No pain is too great to close your eyes forever. There are a million lives to be lived outside. For the amount of suffering and tragedy that constantly befalls the world, there is greater beauty and love to be found and explored. You just have to spend a little less time chasing those thoughts in your mind, get outside and just let them go.
4. HARD FEELINGS
I GUESS THERE’S TOO MUCH OF YOU IN MY VEINS
AND IT'S SLOWLY STARTING TO SHUT ME DOWN
GIVE ME A REASON TO BREATH
GIVE ME A REASON TO THINK CLEARLY
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T LEAVE
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T WANDER ENDLESSLY
AND IT'S SLOWLY STARTING TO SHUT ME DOWN
I’VE BEEN THINKING, I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS TOO LONG
AND I'VE BEEN GOING ABOUT THIS ALL TOO WRONG
NEVER KNEW WHAT TO SAY OR WHAT TO DO
TO VOICE THESE THOUGHTS THE BEST TO YOU
WHEN I WAKE UP I FEEL SICK
THERE IS NO END TO THIS
THERE IS NO END
I GUESS THERE’S TOO MUCH OF YOU IN MY VEINS
AND IT'S SLOWLY STARTING TO SHUT ME DOWN
GIVE ME A REASON TO BREATHE
GIVE ME A REASON TO THINK CLEARLY
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T LEAVE
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T WANDER ENDLESSLY
NOTHING WORTH KEEPING COMES THAT EASY
THIS PAIN
THIS WORLD
WON'T DEFEAT ME
NEVER KNEW WHAT TO SAY OR WHAT TO DO
TO VOICE THESE THOUGHTS THE BEST TO YOU
WHEN I WAKE UP I FEEL SICK
THERE IS NO END TO THIS
NO
I GUESS THERE’S TOO MUCH OF YOU IN MY VEINS
AND IT'S SLOWLY STARTING TO SHUT ME DOWN
GIVE ME A REASON TO BREATHE
GIVE ME A REASON TO THINK CLEARLY
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T LEAVE
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T WANDER ENDLESSLY
WHEN I WAKE I FEEL SICK
THERE IS NO END TO THIS
WHEN I WAKE I FEEL SICK
THERE IS NO END TO THIS
I GUESS THERE’S TOO MUCH OF YOU IN MY VEINS
AND IT'S SLOWLY STARTING TO SHUT ME DOWN
GIVE ME A REASON TO BREATHE
GIVE ME A REASON TO THINK CLEARLY
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T LEAVE
TELL ME WHY I SHOULDN'T WANDER ENDLESSLY
5. WANDERLUST
[feat. Andrew Neufeld of Comeback Kid]
I'M STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I'VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
I'M STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I'VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
I'VE GOT SO MUCH TROUBLE ON MY MIND
I CAN'T DESCRIBE
NO WORDS TO HIDE THE PAIN BEHIND MY EYES
SO WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?
GIVE ME HEAVEN
GIVE ME HELL
GIVE ME AN ANSWER
ARE WE LOST?
LOST
WANDERLUST
LUST
STILL SEARCHING ALL THESE YEARS GONE BY
AND STILL NO END IN SIGHT
I'M STILL STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I’VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
I'M STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I'VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
WHEN DID THE COMPASS BREAK?
WHEN DID WE LOSE OUR WAY?
GIVE ME HEAVEN
GIVE ME HELL
GIVE ME AN ANSWER
ARE WE LOST?
LOST
WANDERLUST
LUST
STILL SEARCHING ALL THESE YEARS GONE BY
AND STILL NO END IN SIGHT
I'M STILL STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I’VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
I'M STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I'VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
I SWEAR
WITH MYSELF AS MY WITNESS
THAT I
I'LL GET THROUGH ANYTHING
I CAN GET THROUGH THIS
I SWEAR
WITH MYSELF AS MY WITNESS
THAT...
I'M STILL STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I’VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
I'M STARING AT THE SUN
SCREAMING OUT MY LUNGS
I’VE SANG A HUNDRED WORDS
TO CHASE A HUNDRED PROBLEMS
RIGHT OUT OF MY MIND
I discovered hardcore, hip hop and punk music when I was about twelve years old courtesy of older siblings. At the time of writing this I am twenty-nine years old. That's almost twenty years later I'm still coming back to this music to escape. To help me heal. To hype me up. To put me to sleep. To wake me up. To connect. To disconnect. To reminisce and to daydream of what could be.
6. DOGS BLOOD
[feat. JJ Peters of Deez Nuts]
SO, SO SICK OF THE SAME THING
SOMEONE WAKE ME UP
GET ME OUT OF THIS DREAM
SO, SO SICK OF A LIFE ON REPEAT
BROKEN RECORD STILL SPINNING THE SAME BEAT
STILL DYING
STILL LYING
THROUGH YOUR TEETH
I STILL SEE DISEASE
IN YOUR EYES
IN THESE STREETS
EVERY HOUR
EVERY DAY
EVERY WEEK
LOOK AT ME
I STILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING
AND I HOPE YOU WALK THE EARTH ALONE
AND I HOPE YOU CARRY THE WEIGHT
OF EVERY LIE YOU SPUN
OF EVERY STRAW YOU PLACED
THAT BROKE A BACK
I HOPE YOUR DOG BLOOD ROTS YOU
FROM THE INSIDE OUT
GET THOSE MIDDLES FINGERS UP CAUSE
FUCK THE GOVERNMENT
FUCK THE COPS
FUCK AUTHORITY
AND FUCK THE SYSTEM
AND FUCK YOU TOO IF YOU'RE FUCKING WITH THEM
NOW WHOSE SIDE ARE YOU ON?
IF YOU'RE NOT ON MINE
YOU'RE JUST A NARK
JUST A SNITCH
JUST A BITCH
DON'T PRETEND WE ARE ONE AND THE SAME
AND I'M SO SICK OF THE SAME SHIT
ON REPEAT LIKE IT'S GROUNDHOG DAY
THERE'S ALWAYS HELL TO PAY
AND WE ARE ALL JUST DIE IN THE END
LIFE'S SHORT
DOWN FOR ANYTHING
FUCK A FAKE FRIEND
I STILL SEE DISEASE
IN YOUR EYES
IN THESE STREETS
EVERY HOUR
EVERY DAY
EVERY WEEK
I STILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING
AND I HOPE YOU WALK THE EARTH ALONE
AND I HOPE YOU CARRY THE WEIGHT
OF EVERY LIE YOU SPUN
OF EVERY STRAW YOU PLACED
THAT BROKE A BACK
I HOPE YOUR DOG BLOOD ROTS YOU
FROM THE INSIDE OUT
GET THOSE MIDDLES FINGERS UP CAUSE
FUCK THE GOVERNMENT
FUCK THE COPS
FUCK AUTHORITY
AND FUCK THE SYSTEM
AND FUCK YOU TOO IF YOU'RE FUCKING WITH THEM
NOW WHOSE SIDE ARE YOU ON?
IF YOU'RE NOT ON MINE
YOU'RE JUST A NARK
JUST A SNITCH
JUST A BITCH
DON'T PRETEND WE ARE ONE AND THE SAME
SO NOW THE LINE’S BEEN DRAWN IN THE SAND
YOU BETTER FUCKING KNOW ON WHICH SIDE THAT YOU STAND
AND IF THERE'S A SINGLE DOUBT IN YOUR WEAK FUCKING MIND
BET THAT WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU AIN'T ONE OF OUR KIND
THE LIFE WE LIVE AIN'T FOR THE FAINT HEART YOU SEE
SO DO YOUR RESEARCH BEFORE YOU TRY AND WALK THIS LINE
THIS IS FOR REAL WE AIN'T PLAYING NO GAMES
YOU’RE FUCKING LAME
WE AIN'T ONE AND THE SAME BITCH
I'm a dreamer, I've always been. Some would say the things I believe aren't realistic or obtainable. I've always wished for a just future where those in power strive to preserve the environment, sustain all forms of life and most importantly care for the people. People over profit should be an unquestionable trait in every politician. But sadly we live in a world corrupted by money and status. We destroy beautiful things to create and consume products that are both toxic to ourselves and to the places we live. I would liken these practices of the human race to a disease, a cancer eating away at the world until we eventually kill it. At the time of writing this song there have been countless acts of police violence against unarmed surrendering civilians on the news. These law enforcers are meant to serve and protect the public. They are there to make it as safe as possible. Not to shoot to kill someone who steals two cans of soda. There is no outcry from other policemen condemning their peers' actions, there is no scream for change with how they are educated in serving the public. This song is about endeavouring to being a conscious consumer. Living a just life in all regards. Having fun with your friends, doing what you love and not disrespecting those along your path who don't deserve it because if you can't change your own habits then how can you expect anyone else to. It's also a fuck you to those that don't.